Assalamualaikum & Hai
I can't believe we're almost at the end of March.
Honestly, this month have been a terrible one for me.
I resign from my job and struggle to find new one.
Work for a one-day job and didn't get the pay until today.
My wedding preparation didn't go so well.
My family keep on argueing and changing the wedding vanue.
Miss out my beautiful cousins wedding.
And the worst part is, I keep on having arguement with en.man.
*sigh*
Since he came back from mount climbing, he's become a different person.
Always with his phone whatsapping with his so called 'group gunung'.
Keep on talking about them.
About the girls that went there with them.
One minute he tells me about Moon and the next he's talking about Ja.
The next day he talks about them again and again and again.
The same person and the same story.
He even ignore me when we're at restaurant.
He' s so busy that he didn't even listen to me while I'm talking.
He used to be mad at me over the same thing but now he's much more worst than me.
I don't know how he can became like that just by a split second.
He went there for only four days but when he came back, he became a totally different person.
Its almost like I don't know him at all.
Who is that guy inside my fiancee's body?
What have he done to him?
Where did my old fiancee go?
That was the question that always linger around my head.
And its killing me.
I try to be positive about it and just try to adapt with the new situation but I just can't lie to myself.
I don't like this new changes.
Maybe he just shocked over the attention he gets from his new friends.
But I'm not sure if I can accept that change.
I'm used to be his center of attention.
Its always about me but now its always about his new friend.
Sometimes I feel like I've been dump.
Being left over hanging around a conversation or being numb trying to understand what he's been talking about.
And it makes me sad.
Really sad.
With our wedding just around the corner how can he change like that?
I'm not sure what to do anymore.
I'm not sure what to think either.
I just hope he realise what I feel and try to become just like before he went for the trip.
O Allah, please give me guidance and strenght to overcome this situation so that I won't make the wrong decision.
Aminnn.
