Tested

This is a story that comes out from the feeling that I have today. 
Here's a story on what happen to me just now.

I ask my colleague(the one that my HR appointed to cover me when I need a break) whether they can cover me for a while so that I can go and perform my solat. And their answer was so frustrated. Here a lil bit of dialogue between me and them:

Calling A:
Me: Are you busy?
A: Yup, why?
Me: I want your help to cover me for awhile. I want to go for solat.
A: Owh, I'm busy. I have something to finished right now. Why don't you ask B to cover you.
Me: She's busy too. But never mind, I'll try and ask her.
A: Okay.

Calling B:
Me: Are you busy?
B: Of course I'm busy. Why?
Me: I just need your help to cover me for awhile. I want to got to 'surau'.
B: I'm busy. Why didn't you ask A to cover you. She got someone that can cover her job for awhile. If I cover you then who will cover my job?
Me: Owh, okay. Never mind. I'll try and ask A again.
B: -Hang up-.

After the last conversation, I cannot hold back my tears. I quickly ran into the toilet and cry, cry and just cry. I felt so tiny at that moment. I even regret being a receptionist. I regret being a front-liner. I regret everything about this job. All I want to do is just to perform my prayer. Is that wrong? Whats the point of me replacing my Ramadhan fast if I didn't solat? I know that I didn't always perform my solat, but at least I'm trying my best to change that. But if this what I always get when I want to perform my solat, I think my effort will go to waste. From now on, I just have to be strong. Maybe this is a test given from 'HIM' to test the strength of my faith. I just have to accept it with an open heart.




p/s: may Allah forgive my wrong. Amin..