New Life

Assalamualaikum & Hai


It's been a while since I last post here.
Diam tak diam dah nak masuk 7 bulan aku kahwin.
Buat masa sekarang aku still duduk dengan family in law aku.
In sha Allah lepas raya kitorang akan pindah.

Macam mana perasaan dah kahwin?
Soalan yg selalu orang tanya aku.
Bagi aku perasaan dia sama aje.
Yang beza nya cara hidup.
Kalau dulu before kahwin duit boleh guna untuk beli apa2 je untuk diri sendiri.
Tapi sekarang bila gaji automatik kita akan terfikir nak tolong husband bayar apa yang patut.
Duit gaji sekarang guna untuk beli barang dapo, bayar bil, duit tambang & etc.

Awal bulan 7 hari tu aku dapat berita gembira.
Strat dari hujung bulan 6 badan aku dah start rasa lain.
Kadang2 rasa loya,  kadang2 rasa pening.
Bila aku tak peot2, aku ajak la en. man pegi klinik.
Yela.  Mana la tau kot2 ada isi kan.
Check punya check.
Doctor pun cakap aku mengandung.
Woohooo!!!
I'm pregnant!!!
Aku punya happy time tu hanya Allah yang tahu.
Sekarang ni aku dah masuk dua bulan pregnant.
Alhamdulillah, syukur Ya Allah.
En. Man of course la org kedua happy.
Kalau boleh semua org yg dia jumpa dia nak bagitau pasal big news tu.
Aku...  Layankan aje perangai dia.

Besok nya aku ajak en. man pegi klinik lagi.
Kali ni aku nak scan perut.
Bila aku ckp dengan doc aku nak scan perut, dia pun happy sama. 😊
Macam2 dia nasihat aku.
Jangan makan junk food, fast food, air bergas.
Banyakkan makan buah2, sayur2 & daging.
Minum susu & macam-macam lagi lah.
Baikkk doctor, saya akan dengar cakap doctor.

Next month aku pegi check & scan lagi, nanti aku share gambar scan aku tu lagi ye.
Till then...
Enjoy our first baby sonogram pic. 😍😍

Our first baby sonogram. 😊

p/s: Selamat berpuasa buat yang beragama Islam. Jangan ponteng puasa yee.... 

Two more months

What!!! 2 more months???
Seriously aku tak prepare apa lagi weyh.
Ayah aku la lambat sangat letak tarikh nikah.
Kan dah kelam-kabut sekarang ni.

MUA aku tak book lagi.
Photog, pun tak book lagi.
Kasut kahwin, tak carik lagi.
Yang on progress cuma baju nikah aku je.
Hantaran cuma tinggal beli buah & makanan je.

Arghhh!!!!
Stress melanda...

People Do Change

Assalamualaikum & Hai

I can't believe we're almost at the end of March.
Honestly, this month have been a terrible one for me.
I resign from my job and struggle to find new one.
Work for a one-day job and didn't get the pay until today.
My wedding preparation didn't go so well.
My family keep on argueing and changing the wedding vanue.
Miss out my beautiful cousins wedding.
And the worst part is, I keep on having arguement with en.man.
*sigh*

Since he came back from mount climbing, he's become a different person.
Always with his phone whatsapping with his so called 'group gunung'.
Keep on talking about them.
About the girls that went there with them.
One minute he tells me about Moon and the next he's talking about Ja.
The next day he talks about them again and again and again.
The same person and the same story.

He even ignore me when we're at restaurant.
He' s so busy that he didn't even listen to me while I'm talking.
He used to be mad at me over the same thing but now he's much more worst than me.

I don't know how he can became like that just by a split second.
He went there for only four days but when he came back, he became a totally different person.
Its almost like I don't know him at all.
Who is that guy inside my fiancee's body?
What have he done to him?
Where did my old fiancee go?
That was the question that always linger around my head.
And its killing me.

I try to be positive about it and just try to adapt with the new situation but I just can't lie to myself.
I don't like this new changes.
Maybe he just shocked over the attention he gets from his new friends.
But I'm not sure if I can accept that change.
I'm used to be his center of attention.
Its always about me but now its always about his new friend.
Sometimes I feel like I've been dump.
Being left over hanging around a conversation or being numb trying to understand what he's been talking about.
And it makes me sad.
Really sad.

With our wedding just around the corner how can he change like that?
I'm not sure what to do anymore.
I'm not sure what to think either.
I just hope he realise what I feel and try to become just like before he went for the trip.

O Allah, please give me guidance and strenght to overcome this situation so that I won't make the wrong decision.
Aminnn.